Hey Kiddo, dont worry!!
I saw my first Honoray Initiation at a 30 th Anniversary at B N Chapter Of LXA (Fl Tech).
The Candidate, sat and watched the ritual while a Candidate went through. He was explained to each time something happened and shown the Ritual items so he was participating in it at the same time.
He was given a short course before and I am sure told to be at ease. After each part, he was explained to what the ceremony met.
You being Initiated not because or you knowledge of the Organization, but you love and feeling of being a member of a fine group!
YOU Will Do Fine, and good luck!!!!!!!
Let us know so we all can celebrate in our own little way with you!